maybe it's purely psychological that i suddenly feel a change in myself. i've never felt better and my confidence is really having a good time. i guess i have to thank ath because i was like, "eh, you better pray for me when you're there," and sure enough, things are going about nicely after she came back from saudi. it's nice to wake up and realize that you're dictating your own emotions.

you know, it's intensely ironic how my name 'taufiq' essentially means 'a helping hand' but i, at my own shortcomings, need all the help in the world to live my life.

or maybe... maybe i'm just mental.