i'm blogging because i have time to kill today. being out of the team indefinitely means that i'm relatively free and less prone to fatigue nowadays. about the fiasco, it was uncalled for and i don't know if the school is gonna take further actions on me.

the act was semi-planned on my part, really. i was up the whole night contemplating if i should do it or not, weighing the pros and cons and when i came to the decision, i prepared myself mentally for the morning. it's simple really. the speech was heavily edited and i'm not gonna read out something which did not come from me. heck, i was even googling up on joey barton the whole night, the bad boy of epl, the guy who's riddled with disciplinary problems because of incidents outside the field and thought, "dammit, i'll be joey tomorrow and show them how controversies are properly done. let's just go crazy."

and i did carry out the action, guessing correctly that he would reciprocate hellish-mad. a few teachers talked to me after the fiasco and ironically or surprisingly, the teacher who made the most sense was ms aminah. she addressed the whole class and brought up certain issues that really got my heart after knowing what she had done for me.

post-fiasco, things look normal. i'm being nonchalant in class and also avoiding teachers for practical reasons, to escape their long lecture of how they disapprove of my doings. i'm sick of it all, to be honest. the student population, some praised my actions, out of sincerity or out of pity, god knows but i want to thank those who were there for me. you people should know who you are. hah. i'm as bad as joey barton now.