it's sad when things don't work out the way you expected it to be. even when you're not directly involved in the situation, you can't help but feel a little bit sad. that's the thing about rooting for someone who's pursuing a relationship. and when it fails, us male species make such bad advice-givers and listeners, really bad confidants, that we can only respond with a mere, "i feel you, man. i really do." then comes the helpless feeling when you see your mate all down, you thinking what you should be doing or saying to him, maybe a hug or a pat but then you retract back because you think it'd be gay and all. the thing that happened last week was something new for me. simply because i was quite close to both parties and i was hoping that they would last. but they didn't.

after what happened, i've learned to appreciate :):):) more.

to char: eat more. binge and binge and binge, i don't care. you look better with more meat on you.