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if holden caulfield is real and is living, if he chanced upon me, he'd beat the shit out of me and kill me with his bare fists. i am a fake. i love everything and anything anglo, thinks and act like i'm anglo when i'm actually not. i worship another race because i think my own race is incompetent and impotent when i might actually be more incompetent and impotent than they are. which makes me, as holden caulfield would have put it, a phony. a first-class, gold-plated, honey-brazen phony.

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Sunday, December 31, 2006
a new year would mean a new blogskin.

on another note, the assignments' deadline is only a few days away and i'm not even done with some of the assignments.

oh fuck, have a wicked new year.




norman reedus:



Friday, December 29, 2006
"Your subtleties, they strangle me."
oh my goshes, i've been a daft bastard yet again.


Sunday, December 24, 2006
"I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

How do you feel, that is the question
But I forget, you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized
Folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me"


Wednesday, December 20, 2006
john says: eh where to get arsenal jerseys
john says: as in the latest ones
taufika says: go to the emirates stadium


Monday, December 18, 2006
Billy Callahan: I'm supposed to be in Florence by midnight.
Christopher Turk: How the hell are you going to do that?
Billy Callahan: Her apartment is two blocks away. Should be no problem at all.

colin farrell, playing callahan, was neat as usual. farrell is like the mack of everything suave.



Sunday, December 17, 2006

"I think the easiest way to lose something is to want it too badly."



Saturday, December 16, 2006
"Smell the burning leaves in autumn driveways.
We'll be out on the road to way past supper
and leave the lamp lit low beside the window
if you can mop up a waterfall.

'Cause I'll lead you until morning.
please be here until the morning,
hold my hand until the morning
brings the light of day to our eyes

Just hop a train, you hate to fly.
Come see the pictures of my eyes.
You want to laugh, I want to cry, cry, cry, cry."



you were just an ordinary aquaintance but your demise is felt.

to benedict liu: rest in peace, man.


Thursday, December 14, 2006
the habit has really taken a toll on me.

must stop.


Friday, December 08, 2006
i want strawberry sundae.


Wednesday, December 06, 2006
"i think that the problem with most people who want what they can't have is that when they actually get the thing they covet, they don't want it anymore. "


Tuesday, December 05, 2006
tv shows are fictitious, yes, but i want my life to be vividly entertaining ala scrubs. the show has everything, from comedy to melodramatic moments, portraying the different bitchfits that life has in store for us. i guess the reason why i absolutely love the show is probably because i can relate a lot to the happy or disappointing moments that the main character goes through every episode. what is really striking about the show is the fact that each episode has a significant message that is illustrated even though the show is suppose to be a comedy sitcom.

neat stuff. recommended, so watch it.


Monday, December 04, 2006
i have been a regular companion of my bed with the intensive training sessions and the slacking whatnots outside. rotting in your room with a book and ice tea on a sunny afternoon and having your air-conditioner switched on at full blast is awesome once in a while when you're usually out most of the days of the week. of course, who can forget the fags. the essential fags. certainly a must on those rare epiphanic moments.

and dostet darum, i still do.


Friday, December 01, 2006
"i don't think people are meant to be by themselves. that's why if you actually find someone you care about, it's important to let go of the little things.

even if you can't let go all the way."